Update

Bikram

I am on day 16 of my 30 in 30 days. During the first week I kept asking myself what the fuck am I doing? If I hadn't pre-paid for the month, I probably would have called it quits. Now on the second half of the 30 days, I am going to class out of habit. I am not really thinking about the fact that I have fourteen more days to go. I just go no matter what. I am also doing doubles for days when my job cuts into my yoga schedule. Doubles are horrible, horrible, horrible. But they are doable. The coconut water and the vitamin c packs really help. My struggle, because I always have a struggle, is my neck. It went from being sore to having sharp pain. For the last week I have had to ice my neck after class. I ice and sleep. It has been very painful. I officially cannot sleep with a pillow. I miss my pillow- a lot. It has also forced me to be super aware of my body during practice. I have to ultra aware of tension in my neck and shoulders. And rabbit pose is out. Thankfully non of the instructors expect much of me. Awkward pose remains my albatross. I just cant get all the way down there, stay all the way down there, and get back up. I blame my weight. I blame my knees. It better not be another fucking mental block. I have way too many of those to deal with.


Work

Work is work. Not enough time, not enough me. Old work keeps dogging me.

Health

My heath is a discussion for another day. I don't want to speak into existence what is swirling around in the back of my head. Oddly enough, I was contacted for being a possible bone marrow donor. I gave blood sample. They wanted a lot of blood. Thankfully I had a big lunch. I am hoping I am not a match. Not because I don't want to help. I do. But I think I may have unconfirmed health issues that may preclude my donation. I don't want to be a match and then have to tell them I can't do it.

The Sit

I am going to start my temple hopping adventure soon. I am trying to go into it without any expectations. But I am anxious and nervous. Not sure I am ready for it.

Running

Thanks to Bikram, my body won't let me run. It's just too much. I am not that bad ass yet.

Weight
My weight has stayed exactly the same. It will not budge. I am tired all the time. My body hurts. I can't get anything done. And my weight will not budge.